Forgive me, for being so selfish, i should give you more attention but i take everything for granted. Forgive me, for failing to protect you. Forgive me for not holding on but giving up, requesting to the hospital for you to die at home when the doctor mentioned you have 10% of survival chance. Forgive me, for forcing you to die, you tried to reach for your breath, trying so hard to breathe but there wasn't any oxygen tube to help you anymore. Thank you for hanging on until we reach home. Thank you for staying by my side 24/7 no matter how much i scold you at times. Thank you for being so strong, every setbacks you encounter, you manage to overcome it and come back to me again. I know this time is different, but i'm still proud of you, you fight on no matter how weak your body was. You did not give up, i was the one who give up. Forgive me, this murderer, for taking away the life you cherished so much.

Missy baby, i love you, and i miss you very much. Please come and visit me if you can, i don't care how will you look like, cause you're my Missy, the Missy whom i loved and love me so much.